Turmoil
Trouble is brewing, and I can smell it. Something is not right, the balance which once flourished is now gone... In its place is the stale, dead air of depravation and hopelessness. I can't stand it. Why me? Just when I thought things could finally start moving ahead, I get bogged down again. Is everyone on the same page with me? Guess not.
It's a weird feeling I get whenever I enter the domain of the netherworld which I call home. Something along the lines of uncertainty, insecurity and disillusion. While others have moved on, why am I still here? Am I afraid of change? Whose not afraid? Sometimes I think I'm losing myself, too caught up in the flow of things to realise, too stubborn to accept. Am I still who I am? Is this what I want? I know I like it, heck, I would even say I relish it.
Should I wait and see? Do something? Follow the leader? No one has the answer. When you want something so bad you it becomes like an addiction. The moment you don't get your daily dosage, you start acting up. The devil within starts to speak and you listen and obey. Its eating me from within, I'm suffering from a emotional breakdown of the soul...
Revelations
Why am I feeling this way you ask? I will tell you why, my desperate attempt at regaining what I once lost. The reason for my being is... 'COZ I WANT TO WATCH FINAL FANTASY 7: ADVENT CHILDREN (like now!) screw you iMesh and all that file sharing shit! 2 days of waiting and what I thought was the DVD rip turned out to be that stupid French flick involving a taxi driver! Muthafuckin' morons...
It's a weird feeling I get whenever I enter the domain of the netherworld which I call home. Something along the lines of uncertainty, insecurity and disillusion. While others have moved on, why am I still here? Am I afraid of change? Whose not afraid? Sometimes I think I'm losing myself, too caught up in the flow of things to realise, too stubborn to accept. Am I still who I am? Is this what I want? I know I like it, heck, I would even say I relish it.
Should I wait and see? Do something? Follow the leader? No one has the answer. When you want something so bad you it becomes like an addiction. The moment you don't get your daily dosage, you start acting up. The devil within starts to speak and you listen and obey. Its eating me from within, I'm suffering from a emotional breakdown of the soul...
Revelations
Why am I feeling this way you ask? I will tell you why, my desperate attempt at regaining what I once lost. The reason for my being is... 'COZ I WANT TO WATCH FINAL FANTASY 7: ADVENT CHILDREN (like now!) screw you iMesh and all that file sharing shit! 2 days of waiting and what I thought was the DVD rip turned out to be that stupid French flick involving a taxi driver! Muthafuckin' morons...
posted by Jecht at 3:08 AM
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