Rage
Feeling restless today, lots of things bouncing around in the recesses of my mind, don’t know why I can’t stop pondering about it either.
Yesterday was supposed to by my 11th month anniversary with my girlfriend. Alas it wasn’t meant to be, the sheering heat coupled with a scorching weather didn’t help matters. We did meet up and traveled to Tampines to settle my Redang trip bill as well as allowing me to grab a quick bite.
But somehow, the atmosphere just wasn’t there, everything seemed so contrived and rushed. She had to return home to attend her mom’s birthday celebration, whilst for me I returned home and sulked through the entire evening. A welcome relief was that she said she would call me after the dinner.
So I waited, and waited….and waited somemore. 10 plus, I received an SMS from her saying that she’s talking with her mom and will call me back tomorrow. (Anger level up 1 out of 10) I mean why wait till tomorrow?
Why couldn’t she call me a wee bit later? Then she sent another SMS now saying that she would call me later, but in a manner that I didn’t like, it just felt so patronizing. Anyway I let that pass, hoping that she would call me sometime soon, I stayed up the whole night.
Fast forward, it’s 5am, not a single call from her nor SMS, (Anger level up 5 notches) surely she couldn’t have spoken to her mother for a record 7 hours?!? I was furious and mad. When she didn’t answer my calls, I got even more pissed!
It’s our anniversary! Never mind I didn’t spend it with you but the LEAST and I really mean the LEAST you can do is make it a little special for me just before I go to slumber-land. Having a nice conversation with me would have been nice…but did I get any in return? Nothing, not a word, not anything!
I sent her 2 SMSes stating how pissed I was for not even getting a chance to talk to her, waiting 7 hours for a phone call that would never come (I think I’ve been very generous with the phrase patience), not answering my calls or SMSes.
And when she did finally call back (2 hours later) I was so freaking pissed (Anger 10 outta 10) I didn’t know what else to say. She just kept apologizing. But is it of any use? I already feel stupid for waiting, I felt cheated – where’s the call that you told me earlier? The call came 9 hours late…
There was no SMS in between to let me know or whatsoever that she had finished her conversation with her mom, how am I supposed to know when are you finished with talking? Even if it ended at 3am a simple SMS will not wake me up, I didn’t like her explanation.
She said that she wanted to only call me after 7.30 to wake me up, then what? Where’s my nice conversation? I stayed up all night for this? I did spare a thought for you, but did you spare a thought for me? I wanted to hear your voice so badly last night, I couldn’t sleep because I wanted to be awake when you called, but did you?
You thought that I was asleep, but did you check first? No SMS nothing!!! I am so pissed! You spoke to your mom for as long as you wanted but you couldn’t even send me a short SMS note to tell me that you’re done?!
I took a bath before going to work, I came out slightly refreshed, and I replied to your SMS, saying that I would forgive you and that I’m no longer angry, but she didn’t reply…I called again later when I was back in office, no answer either. What gives?
So I guess now it’s her turn to ignore me? The anger that died down is rising yet again! Whatever! If you want to continue ignoring me, go ahead. I wasn’t in the wrong in the first place and I don’t see the reason for you to ignore me.
Yesterday was supposed to by my 11th month anniversary with my girlfriend. Alas it wasn’t meant to be, the sheering heat coupled with a scorching weather didn’t help matters. We did meet up and traveled to Tampines to settle my Redang trip bill as well as allowing me to grab a quick bite.
But somehow, the atmosphere just wasn’t there, everything seemed so contrived and rushed. She had to return home to attend her mom’s birthday celebration, whilst for me I returned home and sulked through the entire evening. A welcome relief was that she said she would call me after the dinner.
So I waited, and waited….and waited somemore. 10 plus, I received an SMS from her saying that she’s talking with her mom and will call me back tomorrow. (Anger level up 1 out of 10) I mean why wait till tomorrow?
Why couldn’t she call me a wee bit later? Then she sent another SMS now saying that she would call me later, but in a manner that I didn’t like, it just felt so patronizing. Anyway I let that pass, hoping that she would call me sometime soon, I stayed up the whole night.
Fast forward, it’s 5am, not a single call from her nor SMS, (Anger level up 5 notches) surely she couldn’t have spoken to her mother for a record 7 hours?!? I was furious and mad. When she didn’t answer my calls, I got even more pissed!
It’s our anniversary! Never mind I didn’t spend it with you but the LEAST and I really mean the LEAST you can do is make it a little special for me just before I go to slumber-land. Having a nice conversation with me would have been nice…but did I get any in return? Nothing, not a word, not anything!
I sent her 2 SMSes stating how pissed I was for not even getting a chance to talk to her, waiting 7 hours for a phone call that would never come (I think I’ve been very generous with the phrase patience), not answering my calls or SMSes.
And when she did finally call back (2 hours later) I was so freaking pissed (Anger 10 outta 10) I didn’t know what else to say. She just kept apologizing. But is it of any use? I already feel stupid for waiting, I felt cheated – where’s the call that you told me earlier? The call came 9 hours late…
There was no SMS in between to let me know or whatsoever that she had finished her conversation with her mom, how am I supposed to know when are you finished with talking? Even if it ended at 3am a simple SMS will not wake me up, I didn’t like her explanation.
She said that she wanted to only call me after 7.30 to wake me up, then what? Where’s my nice conversation? I stayed up all night for this? I did spare a thought for you, but did you spare a thought for me? I wanted to hear your voice so badly last night, I couldn’t sleep because I wanted to be awake when you called, but did you?
You thought that I was asleep, but did you check first? No SMS nothing!!! I am so pissed! You spoke to your mom for as long as you wanted but you couldn’t even send me a short SMS note to tell me that you’re done?!
I took a bath before going to work, I came out slightly refreshed, and I replied to your SMS, saying that I would forgive you and that I’m no longer angry, but she didn’t reply…I called again later when I was back in office, no answer either. What gives?
So I guess now it’s her turn to ignore me? The anger that died down is rising yet again! Whatever! If you want to continue ignoring me, go ahead. I wasn’t in the wrong in the first place and I don’t see the reason for you to ignore me.
posted by Jecht at 10:39 AM
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